I'm Back!

I am officially back on-line after 2 months! We just bought a laptop to make this possible. We had a laptop, but it was stolen 2 1/2 years ago and we just saved up enough to replace it.

I had a check-up on January 9th. Yes, I'm still on bedrest. The good news is that my hematoma has shrunk from 10 cms to 5 cms! It seems to bed healing with time. It is still bigger than when this whole ordeal originally started but at least we seem to be making some progress. I haven't had any bleeding in 3 weeks. Lord willing, I won't from this point on. I'm at the half way mark in this pregnancy though which is reason for praise! God has been so good to get me to this point. Bed rest has been one of the most, if not the most, trying experiences of my life. I've been in bed for 55 days!! I may get out to shower (sitting down) and use the toilet. That's it. The pain of being confined to bed is unbelievable. I have a sore tail bone and two painful hips with shot sciatic nerves. I can only sleep 1 hour at a time before having to carefully adjust my body. I have to wait until February 6th to see the doctor again so I will be bedridden until at least then. Hopefully, I will get the all clear at that point. I'm struggling to imagine making another 3 weeks. I have a new sense of compassion for the bedridden. I can't imagine how frail old people endure this for so long.

On a lighter note, we did have a funny experience at our last appointment. I have wanted to know the sex of this baby from day 1 and Jack wanted a surprise. Had this pregnancy been "normal" I probably could have waited for Jack's benefit. However, sitting in this bed has just caused me to want to know so badly. I kept begging Jack and he wouldn't relent. So at our last appointment the doctor did a freeze frame of the baby's gender. He then asked if we wanted to know. What he forgot was that we have had more ultrasounds than any person should ever have to have and we know what we are looking at by now. Plus, this is my 3rd child. We don't need it all spelled out. So, when the doctor asked, we said, "umm...we can see it for ourselves." Jack quickly tried to cover my eyes and said, "don't look!" I said, " I saw and you saw...give it up...we both know what it is." We are having a boy! The doctor tried to cover his tracks and said "well, I don't know". I said," I can clearly see that this baby is a boy." Doctor Sankiat looked dejected and said, "what do you need me for then?" It was funny. In the end, God sided with me and let me know something that could give me a reason to smile in such an otherwise tough situation. So now during this next month I will have something to treasure up in my heart as I wait.

Please pray for me and this baby boy. The baby has been healthy this whole time and oblivious to the condition. Pray for total healing. I want to get up and enjoy this last part half of pregnancy. I want to be big and round. I want to wear something besides PJs. I want to go eat the things I crave. I want to be with my kids in their daily lives. I want to walk! I believe God works miracles and I'm waiting for mine.